Sunday, June 11, 2006
growing pains and midlife crisis
sitting down at the table, surrounded by three of my highschool
mates i felt like i was transported into the future a decade's time
from now.reasonbeing was the conversation, hence the subject
matter.morning sickness.child custody.back aches and
bloated nipples.settling down.single parent.people getting
married before they turn 30.its about time to settle down.
LOVE & FOREVER do exist.midlife crisis??!!fairy tale
weddings.happily ever after.all these sounded
foreign to me.i'm human and they were martians.
you'd think "god must be crazy" was bad.this is
ten times to the power of gazzilion light years worse.
i felt like i was 30.i have never felt old being with anyone before.
its either naivity or just plain mundane of a life.
i am glad that settling down is not on my top 5 list of goals
in life.i suppose they grew up far too fast.like a speeding bullet.
as a result , settling for second best.life is short as they know it.
maybe its due to their upbringing and their exposure.
they are nice people, no doubt but my mindset have changed.
i have a much more bigger perspective on the world.
as years go by, my priorty changed.for the better of course.
there are much more better things in life than living in
an oblivion of denial.
mates i felt like i was transported into the future a decade's time
from now.reasonbeing was the conversation, hence the subject
matter.morning sickness.child custody.back aches and
bloated nipples.settling down.single parent.people getting
married before they turn 30.its about time to settle down.
LOVE & FOREVER do exist.midlife crisis??!!fairy tale
weddings.happily ever after.all these sounded
foreign to me.i'm human and they were martians.
you'd think "god must be crazy" was bad.this is
ten times to the power of gazzilion light years worse.
i felt like i was 30.i have never felt old being with anyone before.
its either naivity or just plain mundane of a life.
i am glad that settling down is not on my top 5 list of goals
in life.i suppose they grew up far too fast.like a speeding bullet.
as a result , settling for second best.life is short as they know it.
maybe its due to their upbringing and their exposure.
they are nice people, no doubt but my mindset have changed.
i have a much more bigger perspective on the world.
as years go by, my priorty changed.for the better of course.
there are much more better things in life than living in
an oblivion of denial.
